Whatever gets me through the night!

Micro sociologists claim that "Everyday life represents itself as a reality interpreted by men and subjectively meaningful to them in the coherent world"
The Construction of reality is individual.. and different people exract different realities out of a situation or a universal reality... one that can be seen from a bird's eye perspective...

following the trend of my previous blogs... more questions shooting your way....

is there as "universal reality" at all?
can there ever be a fact!?
if you look at a situation from a 3rd person pespective.. how do you know what you will see is "reality?"

I'm a clear interpretivist at mind... it took me long enough into the course to come to terms with that because i liked to believe im a realist... that i do believe in facts...
what is funny... is that while i was living by interpretations.. i liked to believe in facts... and now that facts glare at me in the face... i want to cling on to their interpretations

I don't like to believe that there is black and a white... and the shade of grey is what actually fascinates me!
its about understanding the grey... and what quantities of black and white went into making that one shade of grey...

My best friend of 16 years is an artist... she is one person i can give credit to for chisseling me out... in ways more than one... for what i am today...
Of the millions of childhood experiences that i remember with her... i remember the million times we analized colours, the waythey blend.. the effect they give.. the contrast they bring out and the meanings that the contarsts project...

So i know.. that every shade of grey can be complimented by a strong colour... to bring out the best in the grey!
I do believe that organge goes well with grey...
i do believe that purple goes will with grey
i do believe that red goes well with grey
and i do believe that blue goes will with grey

it is my perception of the "reality" or the grey... the Shade i "percieve" it to be.. to be able to compliment it with vibrance rather than mull in its dullness.

Its not a bad thing... so long as it appeals to me and adds colour to my life.. how i interpretthe grey...
it is hardly my botheration wheher my combination of purple and grey actually appeals to someone who thinks orange was a better shade to use...
so long as it gets me through the night
i think i'll be fine!

Welcome to Whoever you are...

when is change more evident and acceptable?
when you can see the past as a reel in your head and compare it to the way things are now?
or
When the change is so radical.. that the past is wiped out... of memory and existance.. and that you come to accept that this is the way it has always been?

What abut when the change in internal... when no one can see the change more eveidently than you can?
When you look into the mirror trying to recognize a familiar face.. failing miserably in the process...

and are you welcome to getting to know this familiar person all over again? are you welcome to placing yourself in the skin, flesh and blood of that person.. the one that looks familiar but defers from radically from you?

and then do you ask yourself what YOU is all about anyways?
how can you define YOU?
is it the impression that people have of you? or the experience of being you?
which one do you value more?
where is it that you will draw the line .. to go back to the experience.. not caring about the image...
and then again.. is it about the image at all?
or is it about the interaction?
does your image alter your interaction with people around you?
and if it does.. what will u place on a higher pedestal?

the experience of your interaction with that familair person you see opposite you through a sheet of glass?
or the person standing opposite you in flesh and blood?

and you know ... and the end of the day... that the one person that the sheet of glass seperates you from.. is the one person that has to accept you for what you are more than the million others who stand in full flesh and blood across you...

and what if that virtual image that u see opposite you doesnt accept you for who you are?

It is that "reflection" that makes you realise... change has happened... and it is up to your interaction with your "reflection" that you either accept the change... or change the change...

are you welcome to whoever you are then?
and if you are... isnt it a pity!

Patriarchy...

It still amazes me that im actually writing a blog... making private droppings of ideas public.....
it fails to bother me now.. how people will take my shit!

I think my need to blog rises from the basic concept of "gettin things out of my system" and the strong effort to not shove it down sumone else's!

A lot of ideas are crowding my head this morning...
like Dependence - are we still stuck in clutches or patriarchy!? understanding that the scales of power equation still tilt towards the man?
Do u understand that it happens to you? Can you being the challenger of the status quo and jazz do something about it? Do you have the confidence in yourself to be stong enough when the the same domination is coming from someone really close to you?
and then can you argue that women let patriarchy rise ... due to the same inability to hurt those they love while men brutally crushed ambition, emotion and aspiration to rise?

random bouncing of ideas...
a little oil for the rusted mind....