Weeding Out

Vulnerablities.
Many many of them.
Highly uncomfortable.
Don't want to be this way.
Hate being this way.

Hate feeling like this.
Hate needing someone.
Hate needing people in general.
Hate needing solidarity.
Hate needing. Period.

Hate loving someone so much.
Hate not having someone.
Hate watching people with other people.
Hate hoping "someday".
Hate feeling like this. Period.

Hate aspiration.
Hate day dreams.
Hate change.
Hate decisions.
Hate jealousy. Period.

Hate the want to rebuild myself.
Love the want also.
Want to grow again.
Want to become a different person.
Hate how difficult it is...
Hoping the result is worth it.