The midnight train chugs away,
And the day slowly comes to hault,
It has reached its destination,
And another journey must start...
I dream, as I sit by my window,
As another train goes by...
I dream about being on it, this time,
Headed to an unknown high...
Let the crisp air be the opiate,
Let the mountain be the oppressor,
Let me find solidarity in mustard fields, this time,
Let the books be my only saviour.
And in between dreams,
Of the meadows, evenings and a river side,
I get haunted by today,
And the reminder of another missed ride.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Home Alone
Today was my Alone day. I sat and did absolutely nothing. Or atleast things that could classify as nothing. What I did do, which was a lot of fun also, was order pizza and watch Two Weeks Notice.
Its about this lawyer girl who has these things she fights for and stuff... and how she gets hired and eventually falls for this super rich corporate (here I'm refraining from using the term capitalist) guy. And how he falls in love with her back despite her being an un-feminine, annoying know-it-all type person. And how in the end she decides she'll be less obnoxious and he quits his job (or something to the effect) in order to be together.
Its kinda cute... and in some way implies that there is hope in the world for people like me...
There was a line in there that said - "The world will only change so long as people can change". And it wasnt for one type of people to become more like the other type. It was about both type of people reaching a common consensus...making almost equal number of alterations to exist in harmony...
That makes it slightly easier in my mind to sometimes compromise on things i hold strongly on most other occassions... like the wedding celebrations...As I told gita ma'am... Marx, Weber, Durkhiem and all sorts of feminist theorists were glaring me in the face while i enjoyed my brothers wedding in a resort in jaipur that was made to feel like a village simulation. And I ignored them and I danced and dressed up and looked all pretty. I engaged with all energy in activities that brought about family bonding... like dance to gujju (which i must say i actually enjoyed in the right spirit(s))...
And to be honest... it was a good feeling for the most of it. I needed it and hence I think I need some amounts of me being "not standing up for something" or not "judging someone" or making decisions and choices only based on a/some school of thought.
And hence another journey of seeking balance.... tsk tsk..must it always be this hard?
Its about this lawyer girl who has these things she fights for and stuff... and how she gets hired and eventually falls for this super rich corporate (here I'm refraining from using the term capitalist) guy. And how he falls in love with her back despite her being an un-feminine, annoying know-it-all type person. And how in the end she decides she'll be less obnoxious and he quits his job (or something to the effect) in order to be together.
Its kinda cute... and in some way implies that there is hope in the world for people like me...
There was a line in there that said - "The world will only change so long as people can change". And it wasnt for one type of people to become more like the other type. It was about both type of people reaching a common consensus...making almost equal number of alterations to exist in harmony...
That makes it slightly easier in my mind to sometimes compromise on things i hold strongly on most other occassions... like the wedding celebrations...As I told gita ma'am... Marx, Weber, Durkhiem and all sorts of feminist theorists were glaring me in the face while i enjoyed my brothers wedding in a resort in jaipur that was made to feel like a village simulation. And I ignored them and I danced and dressed up and looked all pretty. I engaged with all energy in activities that brought about family bonding... like dance to gujju (which i must say i actually enjoyed in the right spirit(s))...
And to be honest... it was a good feeling for the most of it. I needed it and hence I think I need some amounts of me being "not standing up for something" or not "judging someone" or making decisions and choices only based on a/some school of thought.
And hence another journey of seeking balance.... tsk tsk..must it always be this hard?
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Me in 25 "Small" points....
This post is dedicated to Sudhanshu, who tagged me in one such note on facebook. I figured that writing this on my blog and linking people who need to read this is a fair compromise between not putting this on facebook for the world to see and not doing this at all.
So here goes.
1) I studied in a Gandian School for 13 years and a Leftist University for 3. The largest chunk of who I am can be sourced back to one of these.
2) I'm patriotic to a fault. Even though I know better, I can't tolerate criticism about my country. Unless its constructive criticism, which i'm welcome to.
3) I love dancing. Period.
4) As a child I've spent a large part of my time playing with barbies. If you ask me now, I will deny it tooth and nail.
5) I was diagnosed of mild dyslexia as a child. I consider it my biggest asset to date. I also cried the whole night after I watched Taare Zameen Par.
6) There was one phase in my life where I wanted to be a VJ or a talk show host. If nothing else, I wanted to appear on a talk show.
7) As an evolution of that, My 1st real ambition, since std 8th, was to be a Freelance Travel Journalist. I think at some level, I still hope to be that.
8) I Love Driving. I've wanted to drive ever since I could remember. My ideal car would be a Red Convertable. (Ferrari F50 - as a kid)
9) I still can't ride a bicycle, despite the numerous efforts multiple people have put in.
10) I enjoy drama(theatre, stage acting). I used to enjoy it even as a kid. I also considered being a script writer at some point.
11) I am a very detached person (despite how contrary it might seem). I know by now that I can never love a person the amount I love ideas. The sole exception to that being my parents.
12) I day dream a LOT. It almost borders on obsessive compulsive.
13) I have wanted to be a mother well before I considered the idea of being a wife. I wanted to adopt a girl child ever since I was in the 4th - 5th standard.
14) I know that I don't want to have biological children. I will adopt 2 childern (twins, 1 boy 1 girl - preferably). I will adopt somewhere between age 25-30 regardless of whether I am married or not.
15) I have recently figured that I am not a big city person. Although I love bombay to death, I would want my kids to grow up in a small town, or a hill station. Atleast their formative years.
16) I enjoy studying. I have always enjoyed studying because I have never studied for marks. To my mind, marks are only a by product of how well I internalize a subject. I have often internalized subjects a lot more after they were no longer a part of my syllabus
17) I love wildlife. I am not at all a domestic animals person. I feel very little sympaty for dogs or cats because they're far more pampared than the deer, the bear and the tiger.
18) I actually feel happy when leopards kill the tribals (or any such incidences). They asked for it! They had no business invading in the leopards house to begin with.
19) I am a true libran. The scales define me the best : because I am always trying to fight my internal battles about weighing out the pros and cons of all perspectives. Even though I come across as someone who tilts too much to 1 side - I'm likely to consider the opposite perspective with exactly that much passion before i decide.
20) I am a true libran in that I can be extremely lazy on one day and extremely active the next. I can also be extremely messy on some days, and obsessively clean on others.
21) One of my biggest flaw is that I tend to get overly passionate at times and in the process lose perspective. I have been trying very hard to find a balance over the years,
22) AIESEC was the most important thing in my life for the past 3 years. I will be lying to myself if I pretend otherwise. But it is true that at this point, I am happier out of it. Over the 3 years, I have also been very critical of it - not AIESEC Mumbai, just AIESEC as an organization
23) I love watching grey's anatomy. I am seriously crushing on Alex Karev. If someone like him was a part of my real life - I would be in love with him for sure.
24) I think I will make 1 movie. In Life- I will be part of 1 Movie making team. I'm not sure what kind of movie or what my role will be. But I get that feeling that I will be a part of one such team.
25) I used to have an imaginary twin brother named aniket while growing up. And I will be forever pissed at my parents that I had to grow up without a sibling.
Cool so now I have to tag:
So
I did this - You better do it too :)
How this works - is that you write this stuff about yourself, tag the person who tagged you and 24 other people. So wherever you write this stuff (if at all you do..) be sure to link me to it!
So here goes.
1) I studied in a Gandian School for 13 years and a Leftist University for 3. The largest chunk of who I am can be sourced back to one of these.
2) I'm patriotic to a fault. Even though I know better, I can't tolerate criticism about my country. Unless its constructive criticism, which i'm welcome to.
3) I love dancing. Period.
4) As a child I've spent a large part of my time playing with barbies. If you ask me now, I will deny it tooth and nail.
5) I was diagnosed of mild dyslexia as a child. I consider it my biggest asset to date. I also cried the whole night after I watched Taare Zameen Par.
6) There was one phase in my life where I wanted to be a VJ or a talk show host. If nothing else, I wanted to appear on a talk show.
7) As an evolution of that, My 1st real ambition, since std 8th, was to be a Freelance Travel Journalist. I think at some level, I still hope to be that.
8) I Love Driving. I've wanted to drive ever since I could remember. My ideal car would be a Red Convertable. (Ferrari F50 - as a kid)
9) I still can't ride a bicycle, despite the numerous efforts multiple people have put in.
10) I enjoy drama(theatre, stage acting). I used to enjoy it even as a kid. I also considered being a script writer at some point.
11) I am a very detached person (despite how contrary it might seem). I know by now that I can never love a person the amount I love ideas. The sole exception to that being my parents.
12) I day dream a LOT. It almost borders on obsessive compulsive.
13) I have wanted to be a mother well before I considered the idea of being a wife. I wanted to adopt a girl child ever since I was in the 4th - 5th standard.
14) I know that I don't want to have biological children. I will adopt 2 childern (twins, 1 boy 1 girl - preferably). I will adopt somewhere between age 25-30 regardless of whether I am married or not.
15) I have recently figured that I am not a big city person. Although I love bombay to death, I would want my kids to grow up in a small town, or a hill station. Atleast their formative years.
16) I enjoy studying. I have always enjoyed studying because I have never studied for marks. To my mind, marks are only a by product of how well I internalize a subject. I have often internalized subjects a lot more after they were no longer a part of my syllabus
17) I love wildlife. I am not at all a domestic animals person. I feel very little sympaty for dogs or cats because they're far more pampared than the deer, the bear and the tiger.
18) I actually feel happy when leopards kill the tribals (or any such incidences). They asked for it! They had no business invading in the leopards house to begin with.
19) I am a true libran. The scales define me the best : because I am always trying to fight my internal battles about weighing out the pros and cons of all perspectives. Even though I come across as someone who tilts too much to 1 side - I'm likely to consider the opposite perspective with exactly that much passion before i decide.
20) I am a true libran in that I can be extremely lazy on one day and extremely active the next. I can also be extremely messy on some days, and obsessively clean on others.
21) One of my biggest flaw is that I tend to get overly passionate at times and in the process lose perspective. I have been trying very hard to find a balance over the years,
22) AIESEC was the most important thing in my life for the past 3 years. I will be lying to myself if I pretend otherwise. But it is true that at this point, I am happier out of it. Over the 3 years, I have also been very critical of it - not AIESEC Mumbai, just AIESEC as an organization
23) I love watching grey's anatomy. I am seriously crushing on Alex Karev. If someone like him was a part of my real life - I would be in love with him for sure.
24) I think I will make 1 movie. In Life- I will be part of 1 Movie making team. I'm not sure what kind of movie or what my role will be. But I get that feeling that I will be a part of one such team.
25) I used to have an imaginary twin brother named aniket while growing up. And I will be forever pissed at my parents that I had to grow up without a sibling.
Cool so now I have to tag:
So
- Sudhanshu
- Rahel
- Alia
- Alisha
- Lavina
- Aziza
- Smitha
- Karuna
- Sneha
- Siddhant
- Jaish
- Arvind
- Ram
- Udit
- Manasi (Madness)
- Dhaval
- Advait (Ady Ash Chandy)
- Ananya
- Minal
- Taha
- Jem
- Ankit
- Saloni
- Sagar
- Rohan
I did this - You better do it too :)
How this works - is that you write this stuff about yourself, tag the person who tagged you and 24 other people. So wherever you write this stuff (if at all you do..) be sure to link me to it!
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