" Don't know why I 'm still afraid, if you weren't real I would make you up..."
Now I'm thinking, would I, honestly? I'm trying to understand the strength of the bond and wondering whether I'd be able to make up a bond to the same effect in my mind. Would my perception be deep, wide, broad enough to be able to "presume" that a bond to this effect can exist at all?
I doubt I could perceive the depth of the unspoken understanding we share, of the "Mental Connection" that requires few words. It honestly goes beyond understanding each others witty one liners and sarcastic stints. Cos humor hides a lot beneath its surface. Choice, Identity, Security, Likes and otherwise and the Lack of all of these things - all stuffings in the big pillowcase of Humor - and then again - Life is just a Pillow Fights isn't it. As much as you didn't intend for it to hit a certain place ;)
Silence holds the strength to convey emotions that words aren't strong enough to hold,they'll just give way and break the emotion.
3 years, and I ponder about how they went by, as a set of phases and then in hindsight , as a synergy - one entire entity.
From being Naive to being Not so naive ... innocence and the lack of it... Ego, Ideas, day dreams...
Insecurity attacks people differently, which is good - the abundance of security in one will flow to the other , bringing about a balance. Or then with both insecure - they will share their insecurity and incompleteness....
Or then theres another option - To reach security -as a personal accomplishment - to reach a seemingly complete self - and then share the security and the completeness...
Experiments, mistakes and make outs. But some bonds are strong enough to survive these. And over the past 3 years, I'm only convinced they'll grow stronger, cos we've given each other multiple Second Chances - and will continue to do so...
I doubt I could perceive the depth of the unspoken understanding we share, of the "Mental Connection" that requires few words. It honestly goes beyond understanding each others witty one liners and sarcastic stints. Cos humor hides a lot beneath its surface. Choice, Identity, Security, Likes and otherwise and the Lack of all of these things - all stuffings in the big pillowcase of Humor - and then again - Life is just a Pillow Fights isn't it. As much as you didn't intend for it to hit a certain place ;)
Silence holds the strength to convey emotions that words aren't strong enough to hold,they'll just give way and break the emotion.
3 years, and I ponder about how they went by, as a set of phases and then in hindsight , as a synergy - one entire entity.
From being Naive to being Not so naive ... innocence and the lack of it... Ego, Ideas, day dreams...
Insecurity attacks people differently, which is good - the abundance of security in one will flow to the other , bringing about a balance. Or then with both insecure - they will share their insecurity and incompleteness....
Or then theres another option - To reach security -as a personal accomplishment - to reach a seemingly complete self - and then share the security and the completeness...
Experiments, mistakes and make outs. But some bonds are strong enough to survive these. And over the past 3 years, I'm only convinced they'll grow stronger, cos we've given each other multiple Second Chances - and will continue to do so...
"but right now, everything you want is wrong, and right now, all your dreams are waking up"
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